I took my road test for my first time today and passed! YAY! I'm so excited! I never thought this would happen to me. I just wanted to say if you're having any problems and you doubt yourself... don't because I believe in you. I mean it. I'm right there beside you. I believe in you.
on Sunday 28th Hurricane Irene hit us. I lost cable and internet but luckily had electric power. (we got cable the next day) We're all very grateful that no one got hurt and we had power. Because just down the street from me many people didn't have power till yesterday. It's scary for some people because all the fallen tree branches. some even on houses. And our thoughts are still with the many people on the Eastern coast who got hit badly from the storm.
on Monday I got my Diploma in the mail! I was just planning a visit to my college in September after the hectic back to school crowd comes. But surprise my diploma came in the mail after months of waiting. I'm so glad thats over.
Well happy last day of August. and welcoming September! I just love the fall. I loved summer as a kid because it was vacation from school and my birthday.... But later growing up I got so jaded by the whole summer season. I really love the fall and last fall I never got to enjoy it because of school. So this year I'm making the most of it! I can't wait I'm already starting a list of things. so may lovely things come and go. wishing good luck and happy positive feelings for the future. -Meg <3
Things are becoming more resolved over on my end. They might not be turning out the way I or others could have wished them to be... but in the end I think we're all a bit relieved to have a bit of our minds back in the right sanity.
long story short. After a week long struggle of my family (along with many other relatives) pleading and begging my Grandma to let my family take care of her. She called us all selfish and foolish. She rejected us all. She went against doctors orders to have someone escort her in traveling and took it upon herself to fly back to her house in California. Thankfully today she got back safe. Although we still worry considering her stay at with my family she couldn't remember what day it was or if she took her medicine. And Although she'll be being taken care of by someone we never met... is not part of the family... not a nurse however she still complains about them too but rather live with that AND her sister who has a tumor and tells her not to take her medicine or listen to doctors... than live with her own family members. We never wanted to force or keep her at the house against her will. Legally we couldn't do anything if she didn't want to sign a health care proxy and have us take care of her. We still hope the best for her.
And Bear our goldendoodle puppy has been doing well... My parents are taking more responsibility so like I said before I can't complain. I'm almost starting to like the little pup. :)
Thats it for now. We're letting everything go in god's hands.
hello there xanga friends. I haven't been here in so long. so much has been happening. Life is getting very frustrating. Heres what has happened so far.
August 18th 2010 My dad tore down the bathroom and ever since we've been living with one bathroom.
I graduated from my college with a 2 yr visual arts degree June 15th I received a letter saying "congratulations! your degree will be sent in the mail in a couple weeks" Well its already August 11th and I haven't gotten anything in the mail... I've heard before that it takes a while for them to send them out... but I find this a bit too much. If I don't get it by September I'm considering going down to the campus and complaining.
May 20th my grandma has had a stroke. She came to visit many of her children families (including mine). She traveled long distances from the west coast to east coast. During the long journey she had a stroke. After finally (because she refused at first) seeing a doctor he helped her and she survived. The doctor has recommended in her condition not to travel unless farther instructed by doctor. So at first we got her a adult home to stay but because of money issues she can't afford to live there. Her temperary stay at my aunts will end this September when her work starts and watching over her 5 kids &other responsiblities. Aug 8th (My Grandmas last doctor visit ) he told her she's ok to travel by car and plane as long as she's accompanied by someone. He also said she could live alone only under supervision. The doctor also told her she must listen to her Daughter (my mom) Basically she can live on her own only if someone watches her. But her house is all the way in California and no one can fly out there and live there with her. So my parents (considering they're both RNs) have offered to help take care of her. My grandma wants to go home but in her condition she can't live alone. (there are many stories by my aunt about confusion issues memory loss and cooking problems almost burning down the house several times) So it has been decided that she'll be coming to live with me and my family for the rest of her days. Considering for years I've been trying to move out because of slightly uncomfortable conditions and just wanting independence. Having this on top of dealing with my mom makes it like double the trouble.
July 26th Without any prior news of this happening my parents came home with a puppy. A goldendoodle (golden retriever & poodle mix) and yes he's very cute I have pictures but can't upload them now. But the fact that they decided apon themselves to get this puppy and not even ask me. I felt shut out like I was not being included in the family. Almost like I didn't matter to be apart of a family decision. Like my opinion didn't matter. I guess you could say its like if I had a baby without telling my parents. Then putting the full responsiblity on them while I go out with friends or go to work. Not only this...But then the very next day after getting this puppy my dad goes to work my mom goes out with her friends and I'm left to take care of it. They basically put their responsiblity on me. After a while being frustrated and picking up after them like children... It took me a while to get them to understand that it wasn't fair of them to put this kind of responsiblitiy on me without telling before hand. It's very frustrating. But I digress they have been taking some responsiblity for their actions so I can't complain so much. But I will say this... It feels like there are so many problems so much to deal with ( oil burner shutting down randomly and more house issues... etc) that I can't even begin to mention them all. I'm only mentioning the biggest ones here
I basically feel this... I already wanted freedom my own space a place of my own. I've been waiting to have something some independence. Now I must put my dreams on hold to help out. I know that sounds selfish but I think everyone wants independence. I like helping people especially family members. But things are getting out of hand here They've known grandma was going to live in my house since July. She has no room ready for her. My parents claim they're going to make a room for her out of the garage. But she arrives this monday (Aug 15th) and nothing has been prepared. Then they get a puppy. It feels like a bigger problem ontop of all these other problems. This doesn't solve any of our problems. I have no idea what my parents are thinking about. I feel like they're ignoring the task at hand by creating more issues. And whats worse is they go around talking to themselves about it instead of telling me anything. It seems so sudden to get a new dog (our old dog that I still miss died exactly a year ago in April) Here are ideas I think why they possibly could have thought to get a dog: I've seen and heard around my neighborhood people are doing more drugs and even saw police cars stop a van and search people. One night people were searching in my dad's vehicle most likely looking for money or something to buy drugs. (He never told me this my mom told me and said "He was afraid to tell us about it" well that doesn't help the problem) They could have thought to get a dog as a guard dog (as my mom and dad HAVE mentioned before) I have told them that dogs aren't reliable to keep the house safe. they're living animals not security systems. I have seen shows and read how people think to get dogs to protect houses and keep thing safe when in reality people get robbed anyway.My grandma owns two dogs back at her home. Since she can't ever live back in her other house and must live at mine. She must get rid of her old dogs. So they could have possibly gotten a dog to distract her or make her happy to live here. Even so with whatever excuses or reasoning anything they thought to get this dog doesn't justify the fact that it was done at a bad time without a confirmation by the whole family.
Well to say my final thoughts on the issue... I find it very uncomfortable to live in my house anymore. I always have with certain degrees of uncomfortable I sucked it up and just tried to deal with what life throws my way. But I find all these growing issues very unreasonable. I'm not sure how much longer I can live under these conditions. I was hoping to go back to school and get my BA degree possibly get a good decent job earn enough money and move out. But considering these the intense level of uncomfortable living conditions I feel thrown into desperate decisions. I might just move out if it gets extremely out of hand. Thats not to say I won't give it my all. At first I'll try my best to fight it out and deal with matters. I hate to run away from my problems. I just want to live a happy life. I'm just struggling to hold onto sanity. I'm not sure where my life will lead me from here. But I'm not going to give up hope. I'm searching for any shred of positive energy and hope to carry me on.
With all that said. I'm sorry to be so negative. I'm doing the best I can to think positive. If you don't hear from me for a while. It will most likely be because of me working hard to leave my current living conditions. I'm gonna give it all I got and I won't give up. We're not alone. We're working together to make a difference. The best of luck to us all. Lets not lose hope in life our ourselves. Lets keep trying our bests.
yesterday my boyfriend David and I went to get his brakes fixed And just two weeks ago getting his cars new inspection and telling them we need the brakes fixed they told us "no they're fine" we shrugged and said okay. So now the brakes hardly work and squeak terribly, we went back and told Please fix the brakes! So they said they'd inspect it and then call us about the car. The store never called us. We waited from 12pm to 4:03pm without any word of the car's progress. So we went in the store and we finally got to talk to the manager He who told us that someone fixed the brakes already without getting his permission or David's for his car to be fixed. And since he has a policy in his store that no one fixes a car without his or the owners permission they don't let the owner pay. David and I tried to pay for it anyway but he wouldn't allow it because he's strict about his policy. Which in the long run is actually nice of him. I mean I absolutely understand and agree with his policy. Because lets say the owner of the car didn't have the money to pay for it... It only makes sense that the manager would contact the owner first to make sure its okay to pay for it so they can work on the car. Well I have to say after the terrible pain of waiting & nasty girl working at the place... to have the manager be so nice and have his policy to let us have the brakes fixed for free was the nicest thing of the day.
Well and today I tried to install my new anti-virus program and the program said my computer might be infected and I tired to get help by the tech support and the company but in the end it didn't work. So hopefully tomorrow I can bring it to a store to help fix it. I probably won't be on here for a while so take care and bye for now **EDIT** WELL after hours of painful tech support I got the anti virus installed (ALL BY MYSELF) thank god another day won't be wasted... I can have at least ONE weekend day to relax... see ya around :) -Meg
